All the pictures I’ve taken, videos I’ve made, blogs written, miles collected, and t-shirts made have been an attempt to push me closer to some goal I can’t seem to define. Being a strong subscriber to the ‘do it now’ approach, less talk more action, blah blah I’m in a constant pursuit to find out what my path is. Now, you can read all the books that tell you in order to be successful you need to form good habits. You need to read more, be a student of the industry, make strong connections and add value to those around you, but what if those things aren’t working, or more likely, you’re doing them wrong..
Since moving back to England a couple months ago, I’ve found myself becoming the exact person I hate. The type of person who talks about what he’s going to do all the time, the person that moans about their situation and where they are at, the person who really isn’t doing anything.
Now to define ‘anything’. For me, it means not actively pursuing my creative goals and not searching for a challenge that is really going to push me out my comfort zone, something that in a year’s time I will look back and say I grew from that. Too often, I trick myself into thinking that pursuing athletic goals is me pushing myself, it’s me demonstrating good habits, and that it is going to lead to some revelation. The fact of the matter is that athletics is my comfort zone. Athletics has always been part of my life, I grew up playing sports and running around and most likely will never stop. So, when I push my boundaries in that field, it’s something I know I can eventually achieve and will receive a good feeling about myself after. I also know that it’s not going to solve the mystery of what I want to do, yet I let it consume the majority of my free time.
As I write this, I realise that this post is more about me getting everything out on paper in an attempt to make sense of everything that is going on. For weeks I’ve been thinking about making new videos and writing new blogs, but when it comes down to it, I push it off until the next day and use work as my excuse. I say, “Working 9-5 is trash” or “I’m too tired when I get home” yet I don’t allow that excuse for my fitness endeavours, thus reinforcing how much athletics is in my comfort zone.
So. This is a call to action for someone to dissect what I’ve wrote and see if they have some sound advice or insight on what I’m getting at with all this and what I should be doing next. For now, I’m going to use you guys as my accountability mirror to start creating again, taking more photos and writing more blogs in order to restore eazyliving, cause living eazy, is something that I am not.
- Ryan